c'est la vie

now only i realize i haven't blogged for such a long time. this is gonna be my very 1st entry in 2006. hehe. just like what i'd predicted when i 1st started blogging that i wouldn't be able to keep up with this for long. now that i've lost my zest for life, i have even less reasons to blog.

sigh. don't know why, i feel kinda down and upset all of sudden. i guess it must because of those insurmountable asgmts that i have to do. seldom would i feel so stressed out except during finals. now everything is like so meaningless to me; the food that i eat, the things that i do; it all seems so "not right" at the moment. i'm really worn out this time. feel so lost. life is so tiring. being a utar student makes things even worse for me. well i'm not here to condemn utar but i'm just so f*cked up. i really need a break. cant wait to leave this place.

i don't even know what to write anymore. i wouldn't want to flood my blogspot with unhappy memories. i'm even thinking of deleting this blog thing. no point i keep it if i only blog once in a extremely blue moon it rite?